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district12ravenclaw) wrote2007-04-03 10:59 am
district12ravenclaw) wrote2007-04-03 10:59 am
Gee, thanks
Since the beginning of time, I've known that I'm going to have an epidural when I give birth. I have never apologized for that, and I don't plan to. And along with that, I've never let anyone make me feel bad about my decision.
Until now.
Last night, at our breastfeeding class, we watched a video on how newborn babies from unmedicated births were able to crawl up to the breast from the mom's stomach and latch on to start nursing. It then went on to say that babies from medicated births had trouble latching and would basically just try to sleep. I turned to Steve and told him that I was still getting an epidural, and I could tell by the look on his face that he wasn't exactly on board with that plan.
On the way home, I mentioned that I got the feeling that he wasn't thrilled with the idea of me getting drugs, and he admitted that he didn't think I should get them. He tried throwing the statistics of recovering faster (because he knows that the recovery period is what I'm really worried about) and the baby having an easier time latching on at me, but I didn't care. Me being the pregnant hormonal person that I am, I got offended and upset that he didn't agree with me. I told him that I needed his support on this, and I wasn't going to allow him to make me feel like shit for doing it. He said that he would go along with it, but I know that in the back (or front, even) of his mind, he's not supporting my decision, and that really bothers me. I need him to put his personal feelings about it aside and be there for me! I realize that things may not go as planned and I may have to do it without drugs, but I'll deal with that when it happens.
I should also mention that he FREAKS OUT if he wakes up in the middle of the night and his arm or leg has fallen asleep. For some reason, it's just something that makes him panic, and he said that he would do anything to avoid the feeling of being numb from the waist down. I think that's part of the reason why he's so against it too, but that's why he's not getting one.
Until now.
Last night, at our breastfeeding class, we watched a video on how newborn babies from unmedicated births were able to crawl up to the breast from the mom's stomach and latch on to start nursing. It then went on to say that babies from medicated births had trouble latching and would basically just try to sleep. I turned to Steve and told him that I was still getting an epidural, and I could tell by the look on his face that he wasn't exactly on board with that plan.
On the way home, I mentioned that I got the feeling that he wasn't thrilled with the idea of me getting drugs, and he admitted that he didn't think I should get them. He tried throwing the statistics of recovering faster (because he knows that the recovery period is what I'm really worried about) and the baby having an easier time latching on at me, but I didn't care. Me being the pregnant hormonal person that I am, I got offended and upset that he didn't agree with me. I told him that I needed his support on this, and I wasn't going to allow him to make me feel like shit for doing it. He said that he would go along with it, but I know that in the back (or front, even) of his mind, he's not supporting my decision, and that really bothers me. I need him to put his personal feelings about it aside and be there for me! I realize that things may not go as planned and I may have to do it without drugs, but I'll deal with that when it happens.
I should also mention that he FREAKS OUT if he wakes up in the middle of the night and his arm or leg has fallen asleep. For some reason, it's just something that makes him panic, and he said that he would do anything to avoid the feeling of being numb from the waist down. I think that's part of the reason why he's so against it too, but that's why he's not getting one.