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Thoughts and reflections
Apr. 8th, 2005 09:42 amDespite the fact that I was miserable in this job, I really will miss it. I won't miss countless hours of peeling and sticking labels, I won't miss getting screwed on deadlines because of the duplications department, I won't miss how much I hate that lady who is in the boss' back pocket, and I won't miss the angry phone calls from parents. I will miss the walks that my friend and I take, I will miss exchanging witty banter with the work order guy, I will miss being the one to help everyone with their Microsoft issues. I will miss the people who offered me their friendship and unwavering support when I made the choice to go back to school. I will miss chatting it up with the maintenance guys when they passed through the office. I will also miss my countless hours of blatant internet abuse :). This place really wasn't that bad to work for, but it wasn't a good fit for me. This isn't what I was meant to do. For the longest time, I really wanted a desk job, and now that I have one, I can't wait to get away from it. With the risk of sounding completely self-absorbed, I have bigger and better things to do than this. This job will be great for someone else, a total blessing. But not for me.
Last night, Steve confessed to me that when I was thinking about going back to school, he didn't want me to. I remember him saying that he wasn't going to tell me what he thought of it, but I just thought he meant that he didn't like the particular program, not going back to school in general. I was completely floored, and really pissed off. He thought that I was taking it too personally, but I don't see how. I was really hurt. Wouldn't you be too, or am I being too sensitive? I basically accused him of faking the pride that he's had in me this whole time, but he assured me that he was proud of me, and that he changed his mind about thinking it was a bad idea once he saw how well I was doing. Then he proceeded to lecture me on being self-centered and condescending because I said I had bigger and better things to do with my life. He reminded me that he works in a desk job too, but I then reminded him that his is a lot more important than mine, with disbursing financial aid money. Regardless, I was really upset.
Steve will be turning in his application for the associate director position today, cross your fingers! I helped him a lot with the supplemental application, correcting his grammar, and re-wording some of his sentences. He thought he was going to be the only one from his work applying for the job, but he found out yesterday that another employee, at the campus where the job would be, is also applying. This guy has 6 years of experience in financial aid, compared to Steve's 3 years, and is in real tight with the outgoing associate director. However, Steve is in real tight with the dean of financial aid, and the associate director at the campus where he works, and the other guy has a reputation of being really lazy, whereas Steve has a stellar reputation. He doesn't think either of them is going to get it, but I'm trying to get him to stay positive.
Last night, Steve confessed to me that when I was thinking about going back to school, he didn't want me to. I remember him saying that he wasn't going to tell me what he thought of it, but I just thought he meant that he didn't like the particular program, not going back to school in general. I was completely floored, and really pissed off. He thought that I was taking it too personally, but I don't see how. I was really hurt. Wouldn't you be too, or am I being too sensitive? I basically accused him of faking the pride that he's had in me this whole time, but he assured me that he was proud of me, and that he changed his mind about thinking it was a bad idea once he saw how well I was doing. Then he proceeded to lecture me on being self-centered and condescending because I said I had bigger and better things to do with my life. He reminded me that he works in a desk job too, but I then reminded him that his is a lot more important than mine, with disbursing financial aid money. Regardless, I was really upset.
Steve will be turning in his application for the associate director position today, cross your fingers! I helped him a lot with the supplemental application, correcting his grammar, and re-wording some of his sentences. He thought he was going to be the only one from his work applying for the job, but he found out yesterday that another employee, at the campus where the job would be, is also applying. This guy has 6 years of experience in financial aid, compared to Steve's 3 years, and is in real tight with the outgoing associate director. However, Steve is in real tight with the dean of financial aid, and the associate director at the campus where he works, and the other guy has a reputation of being really lazy, whereas Steve has a stellar reputation. He doesn't think either of them is going to get it, but I'm trying to get him to stay positive.
